I got a GameCube. That's all I need to say.  ¶ 8:35 PM 0 Comments

  Tonight is going to be such a good nite. I mean most likely I'm going to get a game cube later. After that I'm going to go to the Liars Acadmy Set In Miles and Brandston show. It's going to be such a good nite. Maybe I'll find some cute girl down there and maybe get some digits.  ¶ 3:15 PM 0 Comments

  Much love to all my friends and thier families.  ¶ 3:17 AM 0 Comments

  Well I have band practice tomorrow. I'm so excited that I even came home early so I would be ready to play the whole time. So I'm pretty excited that I'm in a band again. The coolest part it's with people that I don't hang out with on an ordinary basis so even thou I know them it will be cool to get to know them better. Ryan is awesome at guitar. I remember when i saw him play a year or two ago and he was just beginning like I was and now hes so good at everything. Specially picking notes and stuff like that. I'm also pretty excited about the show coming up on Monday. liars academy set in miles and brandston. Well that's it for this cowboy.  ¶ 1:19 AM 0 Comments

  I'm in the same situation again. A certain girl is tanked at my house. Most would think this is a golden oppertunity for whatever sick thoughts they have. To me this is a situation that happens all to often. It pissed me off so bad when she says she is not going to drink. Whenever she gets drunk things happen. Mostly with guys who really don't give a shit about her. Looking for a fix. Except for one. *wink* I try to talk to her about her behavior but she just throws it right back into my face. It just hurts me so much. I'm so sick of caring for a girl that doesn't care back. It's just a tough situaiton and so I'm going to stick with it just cause she needs a good friend. But really I'm tired.  ¶ 3:44 AM 0 Comments

  Oh yeah I went to a strip club last night. It was one of the coolest places that I've ever been too. Really it was great. I don't want to seem to lower class but it was cool. It's a good thing to do when you live in tucson.  ¶ 3:44 AM 0 Comments

  Well I got the new New Found Glory cd at 12:01 on tuesday morning. I have to say that the cd is quite good. There sound is changing from what it used to be back on nothing gold can stay. I feel that in a way it's getting more darker. Not completely dark but it's up there. Yes they still have they're pop punk sing alongs but it's gold. Go out and get it. It's worth it.  ¶ 3:43 AM 0 Comments

  Well right now I feel like writing cause I have a lot on my mind and for once it's not about school. I've been thinking about what I am to people. I really don't know what that is. Like it's not my bros. Cause when I'm with them I'm myself. Nothing can change that. I mean i'm talking about people that are my acquaintences. I feel as everyone see's me as Matt Ritzel. A kid who some say is funny and quite goofy and someone who people can trust stuff with. As that what I am? To me I'm a guy that likes to crack jokes and seem to be in too many situations where all I do is listen. I mean i don't think that it is selfish of me to want someone who I could sit down with and just share an equal amount of talking. I guess I'm looking to hard for things in life right now. I should be out there in the scene trying to get numbers. Go randomly make out. Yeah I don't really know what's been into me these nights. Sitting here typing into this computer. I feel as if i can say anything i want here. cause i know there are few people who read this.

Another thing that i despretly want to do is start up a new band. I've tried talking to guys into but everyone seems to be lazy. I want some guys who would want to start a band that would take it seriously even if we sucked. I mean it's the funnist then that you can have. Well with me it is. So if anyone who reads this wants to start a band and need a guitar player let me know.
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  No more waiting. I thought there was something. Fuck that. I'm just a pillow. That's what I find myself to always be. A fucking pillow. While they are out having the time of their life. I'm at home thinking that I had the chance. Fuck that. I'm just a friend. A really good one at that. Never again, I'm not climbing up that mountain again just to be pushed off without even knowing that I'm falling.
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  The summer wind does wierd things. Not only to trees but to life. When I step outside a sort of calm comes over me. It's a reminder of what I have. In some cases of what I don't have. In the end when I think about it all my little problems are nothing. I am just one person. In a world of many. There are so many things I'm scared of what is to become of me. Not death but other things. The future. I mean I think that the future is death. As we get older it seems everything that seemed to be fun or had significance fades away. Everything seems to eventully be engulfed in the future. I look back at sixth grade when all the things I looked forward to are what I'm at now. All I can do now is look for things meaningful later in life. I mean I'm scared of the future. Yet I'm not afraid of death.  ¶ 4:15 AM 0 Comments

  I'm starting to think this is one of the best summers. I mean I briefly talked about it with Bryan but I only expect great things to come. I mean tonight for example... I got off work went to meet some girls hung out a bit. Went to the show at game works which was cool cause it was music and video games all at once. That was such a cool idea. Then hung out then chilled and played some pool. It was sweet. Well that's bout it.  ¶ 3:41 AM 0 Comments

  The last couple of days have been filled with some relaxing crazyiness. I mean I get off work or what not and then head to Bryan's where we chill til we come up with something fun to do. This is usully just sitting around thinking of something we could do. So we end up just chilling. If it gets exciting we go somewhere where we can just hang out and just be teens. We also have been hanging out with April and Kara a lot which is cool cause I really don't know ethier one of them and It's fun to hang out with people you don't really know. Kara isn't really the talker which is quite mysterious. Ehh?? April she's seems to be pretty cool and what not. I think it's funny of how many people have summer school. Summer school doesn't make any sense to me whatsoever. I mean It doesn't those words don't go together like Britney Moran. It just don't work It would never work. Ohh well. I guess this is new music summer cause there is so many cd's that I'm anticipating to come out. Yeah
For those of you who wonder why I don't write in this is frequently is because I usully get home late and nothing too exciting happens and plus I'm getting a little lazier.   ¶ 2:30 AM 0 Comments

  Wow in like a week I'll be getting the new new found glory cd. ok that's it.  ¶ 2:08 PM 0 Comments